

When I was young and at a party, sometimes I would be overcome by sadness. Then I would have to leave the party and sit outside.
Being stupid, I would sit out there until someone noticed I was gone and came and got me. If they did, then they loved me. If nobody did, then I was alone and unloved.
I was very, very stupid.
These days, I know: I just get overpeopled sometimes and need to retreat. That wave of sadness is my introvert circuits ticking over, and I need a bit of space. I thought back then that I was sad because I was lonely; quite the opposite.
Now, I just feel slightly foolish should anyone discover me, alone, in some back room. "I'm fine," I smile. "Just need some time.". And I realize that no matter how good life gets, I am the sort of person who'll have spikes of sadness from time to time, and no matter how beloved or wanted or desired I am, I will occasionally just need to withdraw and contemplate this strange isolation.
I'd like to be at a party and always on. Sometimes I am. Lucky enough, I guess.
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Saturday, November 7 @ 12:30 pm – The Apple Barrel (609 Frenchmen St). This is where one of the two venues the 8th Annual New Orleans Bookfair is using for its readers. I’m doing a set from 12:30pm to 12:50pm. The readings start at noon and end at 6pm local time.
Saturday, November 7 @ 11pm – Neutral Ground Coffeehouse (5110 Danneel St). I’m doing a late night set out there for an hour. This should be interesting.
Sunday, November 8 @ 5pm – Zeitgeist (1618 Oretha Castle Haley Blvd). I’m doing a full set of poems from and not from Dodging Traffic.
You can find out more about me through my blog, Failure Loves Company, at iheartfailure.net
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I saw in the news today that The United States is going to withdraw most of its military forces from Afghanistan. Okay, the news didn't say that in so many words. But they did say, "The cat is on the roof," which means the same thing.


For the record, I am extraordinarily happy with my shits and I'm finally starting to feel comfortable in my own skin. I actually have "too skinny pants" now. Pants that I bought when I was too goddamned skinny that I now have to lay down to zipper up. This is awesome and a half.
I feel moar attractive, healthier, and generally badasser than I have in years.
Something about not being fukken miserable all the time. It really makes a difference.
Who knew.
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